Thursday, May 27, 2010

My Next Blog: Angels among us? Or perhaps the hand of God!

It seems that “My Last Blog” was NOT destined to be my last, thanks to a guardian angel, God’s hand, or just plain luck. You be the judge, but if you pick the latter choice, I won’t buy it for a minute.

Right now it’s 2 a.m. on the morning of Day 14 of my two-week road trip out west in May, 2010. I had thought I’d be writing about the many highlights of the previous 13 days: perhaps the incredible photos of wildlife – bighorn sheep, moose, bear, elk, coyote, deer, pronghorn, and others – the most prolific of my now 15 trips to the Grand Teton/Yellowstone Nation Parks area of northwestern Wyoming. Or how about the views of snow-capped mountain peaks, red-walled canyons and arches, cascading streams and rivers, roaring waterfalls, many-colored sunrises and sunsets, the varied faces of thunderstorms in the distance and snow storms close up, or the glistening ice-covered lakes and intricately moist cave formations. But those memories and photographs generally tell the story of the first 12 days of my road trip. It was Day 13 that became the theme of this “next” blog.

Our first sunrise in Yellowstone National Park (YNP), three days before the accident:

Lower Falls of the Yellowstone River in their "Grand Canyon":

A majestic bull elk just off the north Grand Loop Road in YNP:

Bighorn sheep with full rack near Tower Junction in YNP:

Young grizzly just outside the Northeast Entrance to YNP near Cooke City, MT (the pass just beyond is still closed to traffic because of snow and ice):

A snowy wonderland along the Grand Loop Road in YNP the day before the accident:

A snow-covered bison just off the East Entrance Road within 10 minutes of the accident:

Day “13” could’ve been an unlucky day – though I’ve never been one to worry about that number or paths crossed by black cats, circumventing walking under ladders, throwing spilled salt over my left shoulder, stepping on sidewalk cracks or not, contemplating seven years’ bad luck from breaking a mirror – the list could go on and on... No, the number 13, while not a favorite of mine, has never really bothered me. I can even stay in room 1313 on the 13th floor of a towering hotel without getting too anxious. Day 13 of my road trip put a different perspective on the word luck – good or bad.

We were heading home. After six days of incredible weather variations and wildlife viewing in Grand Teton and Yellowstone National Parks, Day 13 was to take us to our last scenic area – the Black Hills and Badlands of western South Dakota with Mt. Rushmore’s stone-etched presidents, the Crazy Horse Memorial, Custer State Park’s photogenic wildlife (bison, bighorns, and burros), and other attractions near Rapid City. As it turned out, that experience was never going to happen…at least not this May.

It started with an earlier-than-planned departure from the Yellowstone River Motel in Gardiner, Montana, less than a mile outside the North Entrance Arch of Yellowstone Park. We had enjoyed our third night at this chosen base camp for wildlife photo safaris and were ready for an early start toward South Dakota and then home. By 4:35 a.m. we were packed in my 2009 Nissan Sentra and headed across the park for the final time and then out the East Entrance to Cody, Wyoming and South Dakota. We even contemplated a quick side trip to Devil’s Tower. Before exiting the motel I made one last call to the Yellowstone Park road conditions hotline. What I got was the same message I’d heard late the night before. The professionally competent, ranger-like voice indicated no road closures except Dunraven Pass from Tower to Canyon. The last revised update was from 1:30 p.m. the previous afternoon. While this seemed a little strange, we had no reason to doubt the normally carefully-kept and accurate warning message system. I didn’t realize until later that “all” park rangers had been assisting with an emergency rescue in the Grand Canyon of the Yellowstone River area the day before which found them exhausted and working until the wee morning hours of this Day 13. This meant that the road report and possible need to close the soon-to-become dangerous South and East Entrance roads were assignments neglected until later that morning. We were apparently the first to have needed that task completed efficiently.

After about 1½ hours driving slowly over snowy but as yet not slippery roads averaging, according to my car’s computer info, 34 miles per hour (with nary a slip or slide) from Mammoth to Norris to Canyon to Fishing Bridge on the Grand Loop Road, we began making our meticulous way out the 26-mile East Entrance Road across Sylvan Pass. Even had we been able to get cell phone service and call one last time for a road report, it wouldn’t have mattered since no update had been forthcoming to the hotline. Only later did we realize just how dangerous the eight mile downward grade from the top of the pass to the entrance had become…God didn’t let us make it that far.

Little did I know that I would soon relinquish control of my Sentra to a third party. I’m not sure if God himself, his Spirit, his Son, or one of our guardian angels guided those last moments before we plunged through the snow-plow drift and down the 10-foot embankment into a tributary of Cub Creek at a fortunate 20 mph, but I am convinced that the power of my Lord steered us and made those seat belts protect us from the sudden, jolting stop of our striking the earth. The thousands of dollars of front-end damage to the Nissan and the fact that Tyler had to find by glasses which had flown from my head landing unscathed near the accelerator pedal (“Don’t move your feet, Kerbe!”) attest to the dramatically jarring nature of the abrupt cessation of forward and downward motion. We were shaken but not stirred…too much. In fact there seemed to be no injuries whatsoever. Amazing! The next day I did feel a slight soreness in the back of my neck which I will have checked out this afternoon by my wellness physician in Brentwood, Tennessee. The trauma of the sudden accident would cause me to look back over those last few seconds and relive them in my mind for the next several hours.

As I was rounding a hair pin turn to the right, I felt the car begin to slip for the first time that morning. With Tyler’s help later, I remember my verbalizations and/or thoughts going something like this: “This is not good. This is not good! I’m losing it! God help us! We’re going over!” A bare few seconds later the front end of the car, no doubt slowed somewhat by having just plowed through several feet of snow, struck the ground hard but somewhat flat and stopped instantly. The air bags were not deployed. They were unneeded and might’ve even caused us some serious injuries. The next two hours were an additional testimonial to God’s greatness and the not-necessarily-unlucky nature of a Day 13 event that could’ve turned out tragically…but didn’t – costly, inconvenient, stressful, even harrowing – but not tragic.

The rest of the story in a moment... First, it brought to mind that climactic locker-room scene from the film Facing the Giants. After the amazing come-from-behind and against-all-odds victory, the football coach asked his players one-by-one what was impossible with God. Each affirmed, “Nothing, Coach!” Whether attributing victory in a sport or protection from injury in what could’ve been a fatal accident, I refuse to believe that luck, chance, or fate had anything to do with our Day 13 story. You may disdain my guardian-angel theory or ridicule the possibility that God actually reached out and steered our vehicle straight over that embankment. We didn’t plunge 50 or more feet downward at another of those many potentially disastrous points (even into the ice-covered waters of Lake Yellowstone along which bank we drove for several miles); neither did we strike headfirst into a boulder or tree which were prolifically nearby. We didn’t slide sideways flipping over into the icy waters of the deeper and swifter Cub Creek a very few feet away. We didn’t strike the guardrail causing who-knows-what metal-on-metal sparks to ignite any of the flammable liquids in the vehicle enveloping us in a fatal fireball. Now you may think I’m getting a bit flamboyantly melodramatic. All I can say is, “You had to be there.” We missed that guardrail by a foot and landed in a relatively safe place. Did I mention that neither of us have even the slightest injury? Nothing is impossible with my God; but that was just the beginning of sage.

My 2009 Nissan Sentra off road at Cub Creek in Yellowstone National Park:

Through the snow-bank, missing the guard rail, straight in:

The first of three tows from Cub Creek to Cody, WY:

Slipping sideways around the turn, I do remember consciously thinking that you should steer into a skid like we were experiencing. Somehow I was able to straighten the car just before we went airborne and off road. I’m absolutely convinced that I didn’t do that…only God could and He did! Then what? I turned off the engine and Tyler retrieved by glasses telling me not to move my foot to ensure I didn’t step on them. We thanked God and assessed the situation. We had heavy coats on the back seat and blankets in the trunk. The ice chest was stocked with plenty of food and water and we weren’t too far off the road. I turned on the emergency flashers, we retrieved the blankets from the trunk, and we hunkered down to wait for God to fetch help. We were about 10 miles from the East Entrance and 16 miles from Fishing Bridge. This could take awhile. Within 15-20 minutes a minivan spotted us and stopped. He was a bread-delivery driver heading to Fishing Bridge. He had not room to take us but would notify the rangers as soon as he got near civilization. Did I mention there is no cell phone service around Cub Creek (we didn’t even have service at Fishing Bridge and had to use a pay phone and calling card to communicate with my insurance agent)? Within 20 more minutes a second vehicle stopped – given the conditions and 7 a.m. early hour, there wasn’t much traffic going over Sylvan Pass on May 25, 2010. This was a SYSCO 18-wheeler equipped with snow chains. My little Sentra didn’t have a chance. The driver checked on us and promised to send help – no room in his cab either. We thought God sent this as a backup plan just in case the minivan wasn’t able to get help quickly. So, Lord, what’s next?

Within another few minutes a couple from Long Island, New York, in a rented car came by heading to Cody, Wyoming, for the day. They stopped and immediately decided not to try the pass. We had our lift back to Fishing Bridge…very slowly. Within a few miles we waved down the Yellowstone Park tow truck heading to the scene. To make an already-way-too-long blog just a little shorter, suffice it to say the car was gotten out of the creek, towed to Fishing Bridge, then towed to the East Entrance where Eagle Recovery took over and towed us to Reno’s Collision Center in Cody. It seems the park tow trucks are not allowed outside the park and the Cody or other town wreckers are not allowed on the park roads. Lots of courteous, efficient God-sent messengers helped in various ways during those hours. I’m convinced it all happened precisely as God planned it.

So here we are in a comfy room in Cody Motor Lodge that Tyler’s wife had found at a great price on the Internet. It is now 3:10 a.m. on Day 14. In a few hours we will stop by Reno’s and drop my large ice chest and a few other things in the Sentra to stay here until I can retrieve the repaired auto in mid-June. You see, the further evidence of God’s handiwork is the rest of this story.

The dollar estimate for repairing the car wasn’t the problem. State Farm and our Dave Ramsey-induced emergency fund had that covered. The problem was the time involved. Cody, Wyoming, is apparently not the hub of the automotive parts distribution world. This was Tuesday afternoon and parts could be expected not sooner than Thursday afternoon. Work to begin Friday would be interrupted by the extra-long Memorial Day weekend. The estimated completion date for repairs was June 7. That would be followed by a long two-day drive home to Columbia, Tennessee. The challenge was that I was set to leave on a mission trip on June 5th. God, what can you do about that? In my semi-depressed state of mind, my faith waned. It was rather like when Abraham lied to both Abimelech and Pharaoh about Sarah being his wife/sister fearing for his life even though he had just previously received what Harding University Bible Professor Dr. Neale Prior called the three-fold promise of seed, lands, and nations. Oh, me of little faith! I went ahead and paid for three days of rental car and three nights in this motel room. Guess I was trying to help God out; at the same time still vaguely hoping for another miracle on part’s arrival and speed-of-light repair service. I didn’t really intend to be out of Cody by the weekend, but was setting myself up just in case that best-possible scenario came to pass.

Why not fly home? Too expensive! At least give God another opportunity to show what is possible. My somewhat befuddle brain tried to do a quick computation. Let’s see, with car rental, motel, and meals for at least 10 days that was…Tyler to the rescue, “$1500!” If we could find one-way tickets for about $500 each, I could return after Mission Lazarus about the middle of June and retrieve the car and the expense would be no more than staying in Cody for the next 10 days. Better yet, Delores and I could both fly out to Cody and then drive south to New Mexico to be with our daughter Kara and our grand-twins before helping them make the trip to Branson, Missouri, for the June 27 beginning of our family reunion there (three of our four children and several other extended family members committed to that time – we’re still hoping for the 4th child and his wife to be able to join us there).

With both of our wives searching the Web for cheap, next-day airfares, Tyler decided to call Delta directly. Meanwhile, with the philosophy, “Pray as though everything depends upon God and work as though everything depends upon you,” beginning to join my usually proactive self, I talked with Avis and the motel proprietors who both agreed to give credit back to my card for days two and three if we found tickets to fly out on May 26. Tyler found fares for $647…total for both of us at 12:55 p.m. the next day – not $500 each as I had hoped. Thanks again, Lord!

So here we are… Tyler is snoring and I’m composing this blog to publish when I return home. It’s approaching 4 a.m. on Day 14. We fly home today via Salt Lake City arriving in Nashville at 9:19 p.m. I bet God already knew that would give out wives time to go to Wednesday night Bible study at church and still get to the airport to meet us. Don’t tell me there is anything impossible with my God! He proved that over and over to us in the last day or so; and don’t even hint at 13 being an unlucky number…though it’s still not one of my favorites.

God's rainbow accentuates an osprey in its nest south of Jackson Hole, WY, several days before the accident:

Think I’ll try to go back to bed and get a few more hours of sleep before this very lucky Day 14 dawns. Not sure if sleep will come, but I can always doze on the plane. Can you say, “Flight attendant, a pillow, please.”

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

My Last Blog?

This may be the last blog you ever read (or ignore – or delete in disgust) from me. Are those cheers I’m hearing? Or sighs of relief? Here’s the scoop: Tomorrow morning, Thursday, May 13 (lucky day – at least it isn’t a Friday), hopefully at about 3 a.m. CDT (the horrendous hour will be an attempt to clear Memphis before morning rush hour and Dallas before the evening rush on the way west to my daughter’s home in Hobbs, New Mexico for a B&B – about 1,100 miles that day), a friend and I will embark on a 2-week road trip from Tennessee to New Mexico then up through Arizona, Utah, and a corner of Colorado with the ultimate destination being Yellowstone National Park in Wyoming. The intent will be to visit as many national parks/monuments as possible spending several days in YNP photographing scenery and wildlife. So why might I never blog again, you ask? If you’re still there…can anybody hear me? Hello! No response? Guess I’ll just write this for my wife…I think she still reads them. She’s an avid reader. That’s one of the things I love about her. She’s always filling her mind and heart with the new, the inspirational, the motivational…she just doesn’t blog as often as I think she could since she is also an amazing writer. Oh, well…but I digress.

Why the fatalistic outlook at the start of this keying? I realize the danger into which I am driving. Anything could happen; and as Jacob McCandles (John Wayne in Big Jake) and Richard Boone (Have Gun Will Travel hero gone bad) both uttered in that old flick, “Anything goes wrong, anything at all, you’re fault, my fault, nobody’s fault, [somebody’s] gonna be dead.” There are a lot of ways to perish. On this road trip we will face the possibility of some of the following: a stalactite falling from the roof of Carlsbad Caverns and piercing my skull (it won’t be a stalagmite because those grow from the ground up – you can remember the difference because stalaCtite has a “c” for ceiling and stalaGmite has a “g” for ground); a big wind blows me off the overlook edge at the Grand Canyon (Have you ever tried to navigate Lava Falls on the Colorado River without even a life jacket?); a jeep plummets onto my head and crushes me at Canyon de Chelly, Arizona (Remember the TV commercials 20-30 years ago that used to show a helicopter depositing a vehicle on top of the pinnacle rock rising from that national monument’s dry river bed?); a rock slide in Zion NP covers me in debris (and nobody even wants to try locating and rescuing me – where’s Beethoven when you need him…the St. Bernard, not the composer, silly); a mountain lion surprises me with a leap from a castle-like formation in Bryce Canyon NP and scratches me to death; those are just a few of the scenarios on the way to YNP.

Of course the danger zone heightens in Wyoming. The abundance of BIG wildlife in the Yellowstone/Teton area makes my demise more feasible. I could be trampled by a bull elk; rammed by a big horn sheep, mauled by a grizzly; tired-to-death by watching deer and antelope playing enthusiastically; dive-bombed by an eagle; swallowed whole by a giant pelican (saw a large fish done-in that way some years ago – have photos to prove it…the whole sequence from flight and underwater capture to gullet enhancement and swallowing); gored by a bull moose; stampeded by an angry bison; pelted with pine cones by a mad squirrel (not as big, but just as deadly); gnawed on by a rabid hoary marmot…the list seems endless. So why brave these many challenges. Actually these animals have all signed an APFT (Animals Posing for Tourists) contractual agreement stating that, as a member of the Animals’ Union, they agree to take turns posing in roadside meadows to be photographed by park visitors; so there is little or no real danger. Isn’t is delightful that in the English language slim and fat mean the same thing. Chances of my being discombobulated by wildlife in YNP are slim chance and fat chance. Moving on…

It’s all about adventure in the second half of my life. I am 61 years young; and Dr. Axe says I should live to 120 years and still be active. So the next decades of existence I will try to fill with new adventures. That mindset actually began in the fall of 2007, when I sat in a rocking chair for 75 hours, 7 minutes, and 5 seconds in the Curry Christian Life Center with only a few short breaks and very little sleep. I was one of six Martin Methodist College participants (and the only non-student) to break the Guinness World Record for continuous rocking. It was an effort to raise the final 50K dollars needed to fix and reopen the natatorium (swimming pool to you non-mermaid/merman types) for our college and the people of Giles County. I call that Rock ON my mid-life adventure – my greatest trek into the unknown to that point (other than my marriage over 39 years ago to the most wonderful woman on the planet – can only speak for Earth as I have not been to any others as yet…but there is still hope and a lot of years left – NASA, are you listening?). I still can visualize clearly in my mind the hallucinations I encountered during those last 10 hours in that ominous rocking chair that now resides in a corner of my master bedroom. I routinely use it for sitting upon and tying my shoes (actually I tie the laces only; tying the actual shoes would be more of a challenge than I could stand).

So for the next 50-60 years I will try to exceed the limits of that rocker challenge – not always with death-defying stunts like this 2-week road gambol, but with new and different trips into the geographical as well as the physical, mental, social/emotional, and spiritual realms of life. I don’t know what all God has in store for me during my remaining time on this earth – albeit fewer than two weeks (i.e. stalactite fondue?) or more than twenty years – but I know He has repeatedly promised to bless me and lead me on adventures of which I have never yet dreamed. Only He can take me boldly where I have never gone before. To be continued…perhaps.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Hospitality in a Lakeside Mansion

There he sat, as usual, in his little open-air cubicle beside the lake. He had to admit, of all the lousy places he had found himself setting up camp to perform his lousy job, this was just about the least lousy. It had a nice breeze and a beautiful view. He enjoyed both lovely sunrises and breathtaking sunsets as he put in his long hours collecting taxes for the Roman government. In the calm beauty of dawn or the bewitching twilight of dusk, he was nearly able to lose the feelings of futility that seemed to encompass his entire being these days. Peace! That’s what he wanted more than anything right now, someday. And happiness. His life was work and hatred. He hated the Romans for making him become a traitor to his Jewish brethren. He hated his brothers for constantly either shunning or berating him…even though he knew he deserved it.

That’s right, Levi, the son of Alphaeus, also called Matthew, was quite discontent with his life. He had no friends and no seeming purpose in life. All he had was a pretty good-paying job: adequate salary and sufficient benefits (health insurance, matching retirement plan, season tickets to the chariot races – saw Judah Ben Hur win just last week). He had a nice large house on a bluff overlooking the lake here in Capernaum with a small rowboat tied to his private dock. Too bad he never had the time to use it much less any neighbors he could invite on fishing excursions. The house was a mini-mansion with spacious rooms and a majestic garden. He longed to use his resources to entertain people showing them the hospitality he had witnessed growing up in his parents' lives. They had loved to invite people over. But, alas, those days had long since vanished. He had servants, livestock, even some gold saved up in a hidden place in the house. Yet he would gladly give it up for a little happiness. He prayed for it everyday. That someday God would make a miracle…that was all that could save him from this life of drudgery. He actually knew that his prayers were in vain. Why would God even hear a prayer from such a hypocrite as he had become. Matthew meant “gift of God.” What a crock! He wasn’t anybody’s gift – much less God’s.

Then one day while he was hard at work interviewing peasants, collecting the amounts owed, recording the names and numbers in the logbook…he heard the sounds of chatter. The noise grew louder. A large crowd was approaching. At its head, his gentle voice hushing the multitude, speaking tenderly as he walked, was a man whose countenance was such as Matthew had never seen before. He strode confidently and spoke calmly as one with authority – a caring authority. His bosses never sounded like that. They were either condescending, belittling, or angry. No matter what he did, he could never please them. He could never please anyone – neither his earthly father nor his heavenly one. But this man? He heard the name; he had heard it before, “Jesus.”

Then Jesus uttered those two words, the most inspiring Matthew had ever heard since they were directed at him, “Follow me.” He amazed even himself. Without a questioning word or moment’s hesitation, Matthew scooted his rickety stool back – it fell over – and he walked away from his records, quills, ink wells, water flask, hat, the Roman soldier guarding his back…his entire professional life. He left it in a daze, in the blink of an eye. He didn’t even remember blinking. He found himself following this man called Jesus. He followed him down the street…to a house. It was his own house where he found himself commanding his servants to prepare a great banquet and invite everybody – particularly his fellow tax collectors. He was finally going to be a sharer of the love and hospitality he felt. Others had to see and hear this man Jesus who, with two simple words, had changed Matthew’s life forever. The party went on even though some of the invited guests grumbled and griped about some of the other invited guests.

In the daze that followed (and weeks and months), Matthew gradually discovered two things about himself. First, he loved showing hospitality to his fellows. He had the house, the means, the inclination. The second discovery was that he could write very well. He had always been good with words as well as numbers. His tax reports to his Roman bosses had always impressed them. His narratives describing his collection techniques and experiences with his constituents occasionally got him rare praise from the higher-ups with even an occasionally publication in Roman Digest or Tax Collector's Journal. His detailed descriptions of people’s possessions left no room for doubt as to what was owed. He had talent. Maybe there was a way to use this talent for God’s glory. Perhaps someday he could pen a narrative about Jesus. That would indeed by spreading good news. Perhaps. Someday.